LIFE IN LOCK DOWN - GRATEFUL

I am so, so lucky.

Yesterday evening I sat out on my balcony with a glass of wine looking at the most fabulous view that I have from my flat. I don't live in a mansion. I don't have a garden. I don't have any family nearby. They're all hundreds of miles away. I haven't been able to do my normal 'have friends round for dinner & drinks'.

I'm alone.

I'm 61 years old and alone in my flat, by myself, with my dog. I am very grateful to have my dog because she gives me an essential reason to go out everyday.

However I also have a lot of other things to feel grateful for.

I am grateful that I have a lovely 2-bed flat, with a balcony that I can enjoy by myself.  It must be awful to be couped up in a flat this size with a family.

I'm grateful that even though I'm not actually earning any money in these difficult times I have enough savings to survive on. I'm annoyed that because I have 'savings' I can't actually claim anything and everyone else seems to be getting 'handouts' left, right and centre.

I'm grateful I'm still alive.

I am really, really lucky.

I'm 61 years of age and I have no underlying health issues. I can't even remember when I last went to the doctors. I have so much to feel grateful for.

In these times of lock down I really, really, do feel so very grateful for everything that I have in life.

I have to admit that sometimes I struggle with this lock down thing. I struggle because I am alone. I've lived alone for years. BUT my whole life for the last 40 years has revolved around going out to pubs and clubs and restaurants and coffee shops and meeting up with my friends. And now I've been alone for more than 2 months........................

….....................BUT actually.......................... I've developed a new normal for myself. I walk my dog. I shop once a week. I watch a lot of TV. I study on-line. And for all of that I'm very grateful.

Who knows when this lock down thing will end. Will life ever return back to normal? I doubt it.

But there again what is normal? 'Normal' will probably not ever happen for a long time.

'Grateful' is another emotion though and I have to say that I am very grateful for being privileged enough to have a lovely home and enough money to spend lock down in a  comfortable way.

See you all tomorrow.

Toodles